I toyed with the idea for a few minutes and then cast it away, like all the others.
And then I awoke in the night and realized that--not even on my own volition--my idea was taking root without my conscious consent. A while back I would have freaked out. Now, I'm ok with the change. It feels natural.
My experiment worked. I awoke the other morning and approached the day with a different disposition. I felt good, for the first time in months--in years. My interactions with my family and co-workers seemed normal, more truthful. My wife was a little surprised, but she was easygoing after a while I think when she realized that my personification of a stronger character was just what I needed. I think she was worried about me for a while. I was worried about me.
Somehow, through the night, I was able to transform my personality into someone stronger, more worldly, and leap beyond suburban Wilmington, Delaware. And the greatest thing is that I didn't even have to get on a plane or wait on a security line. Just me, Sam Gregory, seeing the world through the eyes of someone else. Sulci, they called me. I felt alive, I felt invigorated, I felt ready to explore and conquer.
It worked. I can't wait to do it again. But I have to be cautious, as Jilm told me.
Lucy, I do remember you. What could you possibly have to tell me? Let me see how things work out on my end. We'll be in touch.
I hope tonight something exciting happens.